What is this... Post-Camp Cam Syndrome??

Posted by ivykwek at 09:20 PM on June 5, 2007.

Guess what i've been sick since i came back from camp! The sunday after i came home, i was feeling very warm, stomach feeling weird and even have a light breathing problem. The next morning my stomach start to ache and i have been having diarrheas from that day evening till now!

Doctor said this is stomach flu, a kind of viral infection. He also said that the only thing i can eat for now is -- PORRIDGE!!! *sigh

My goodness... I HATE PORRIDGE!!!

Currently feeling: sick

Coffee or Tea?

I'm back

Posted by ivykwek at 04:38 AM on June 3, 2007.

yea... i just came back fr Camp Cameron 2007, which has lasted for 3 weeks in Taman Lakeview, Cameron.

it was indeed a great camp. We learnt a lot more abt God by journeying thru 'the Odessey of the people of God', we took time ponder on questions and problems in our life, we look at our self, ppl ard us and our world, and we had real fun with each other!!!

3 weeks are long enough for me to miss home. However, i don't come back with a light heart, for i know that what awaits me are responsibilities that i don't willingly take up and relationships that i need to redeemed. One of the area of my life that i found the need to redeem to relationship with is my relationship with my family. We were once so strong and close to each other, but i guess we've been struck down by the reality of life.

Yet, God is a God of hope! I pray that I would have the strength and wisdom to put what i've learnt in the camp in practice, instead of running away from the difficulties.

There're a lot more to share! I wish i could share it in a more organised and comprenhensive way, so pls allow me to do it later

If u noticed the time i write this, i can explained that My bus reached Penang at 3.30pm. It was a long journey starting from 8.00 am. I was dying for food since i only had a piece of bread in the morning. Since my father brought my dog out for the trip, we need to go all the way back home b4 we go for lunch (Chee Cheong Fun, Loh Bak & Ice Kacang@Swatow Lane!) The time i can sleep 'nicely' (i fel asleep in the car, i really tired!)was 6.30pm and i slept till 12.30am and had sthg to eat. That's why i'm still awake, waiting 4 my food to be digested and trying to make myself sleepy

hehe...ok la, i'm tired enough to go to sleep after looking at the screen for so long. Nitez 

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Post-exam...

Posted by ivykwek at 11:39 PM on April 28, 2007.

yay! exam is finally over! hehe... this is my long waited time man...

first thing i did after my last exam was: SHOPPING@Petaling Street!!! well i do have a good reason for that... needed to buy materials for the upcoming community service's preparation serious wan la... anyway just found myself really funny for going to Petaling Street ard 12 noon when the sun is most "friendly"... and we carried four pieces of stereofoam from there to Pasar Seni LRT Station (and took the LRT of course...) *sigh never mind la...i love challenges 

Went for church combined CG after that. That nite i slept at 4 am, preparing the above mentioned stuffs + watch Project Runway till finish...haih...human's complicated.. u'll never sleep when u really get to sleep

and then it is today! my friend invited me to her house in Banting for short stay, so i gladly went...hehe...we went Pantai Morib, and i can tell u that i really miss beaches...the place is really nice with the smooth sands and wonderful sunset(though Penang beach is still nicer), and we had a great evening there.

hmm..doesn't that sounds interesting? however, honestly, i start missing home now... i won't be going back so soon, will be joining my CF for a community service at Sekinchan next week... then i'll go back for less than a week before i go off for a 3 weeks camp at Cameron...AND, within that 1 week at home, my frens from KL will be coming to Penang. I REALLY like them to come, but that'll mean my time with my family will be really constricted...

... *speechless* ...

 

Coffee or Tea?

Sharing fr my hearts...

Posted by ivykwek at 01:32 PM on April 20, 2007.

Time flew...

Before i can blog abt my study week, i've already back in uni and have gone thru 4 papers!

Well my study week wasn't a very good one. i went back to Penang, and get myself really stressed up. Found myself worrying more about exams than last sem. Perhaps, i'm trusting God less this time(and this is very bad!!!). I was really thankful for this friend of mine who appeared at the appropriate time and comforted me. The funniest thing is that he encourages me to have faith in God and reminds me that God will shoulder my burden, while he is not a christian.

Oh God, i'm so ashamed and terribly sorry...

Had a lots of conversations with my mums too. I'm glad that i get to know more about things that happen in my family when i wasn't around, but at the same time i'm really upset bcos most of the conversations were not really interactive. they were one-way flow, my mum to me. She shared a lot fr her heart to me, and i really appreciate that, but I hardly get the opportunity to share mine to her.

I do have a lots of things to share with her! During my 1st sem in uni, I, by chance, get invovled in one of major musical production in uni where i became the assistant stage manager. I used to be a dancer, that time i was really lousy and i quitted after form 5. But now, i feel that my passion for performing re-arise. Every muscles of mine tells me that i want to dance! Not only that, i want to dance for God. I think it is a good way to serve God.

 But what will my parents says abt it? They've always been talking abt how hard is it for a christian to stand firm in the art industry. Many artist/dancers are either athiests or superstitous. Talking abt cultural stuffs, they are many races who actually dances to worship their gods. For modern dances, most of it is governed by pessimistism. There are indeed lots of issues to deal with.   

And i get myself engaged in a non-christian project next sem. Initially i don't wanted to because i want to focus more in my CF activities but over times, things changed and i really felt God leading the way. I've prayed abt it and i believed that God wants me to go for it and shine for Him in that non-christian environment.

Again, what will my parents says abt it? my mum has always been advising me to forget about the other secular projects and serve God in campus. But serving God in campus is more that serving in church and CF rite? I think having a good fellowship with fellow christian in campus is very crucial for a christian student, but it doesn't mean he or she should keep staying in that 'comfort zone'. If we don't step out, we can't expect our non-christian friends to step in. i'm not sure whether my mum will think that way.

well... that's not all but this much for this time. i gotta go back to study. i was just reminded about one of my fren back in hometown telling me how worry was he of me when i was about to leave for uni bcos almost all his fren changed after came back fr abroad(or out of hometown). And my homechurch pastor telling us that we'll be facing a lot challenges when we're in uni, esp away fr home. I think their worries are reasonable. Here, u're open to so many options of lifestlyes. Even your way of worship might be challenged, if not your faith. 

As far as i countercheck, i'm still choose to be in God's track. And He've been faithful to me all this while.

'O most merciful Redeemer, Friend, and Brother, may i know thee more clearly, love thee more dearly, follow thee more nearly'      

Coffee or Tea?

i've got moody sometimes...

Posted by ivykwek at 12:19 PM on April 13, 2007.

31 March 2007

Feeling really lost yesterday. Things started well actually. Managed to wake up for extra class, finished my study for the evening test without burning the midnight oil last night. But not until I attended PKV’s year end meeting – YOM (yesterday once more). We’re asked to reflect on what we’ve done in the past year and answer some questions that I find it really hard to answer. E.g. where do you see yourself playing a role in evangelism and involving in social responsibilities?  What is the thing u’ve learnt abt prayer and the Word? Give a name for the year and the God who walked you thru this year.

 

Apparently there were a lot of people writing a lot of stuff in the paper and shared it. But I hardly wrote a word. I just don’t know how to answer. I don’t know why. I doubted if the question have an answer (for my case). Or maybe I’m too dumb to get it. The frequency of me being asked this type of question makes me feel that it had became a responsibility instead.

 

I think sometime words can’t express everything.

 

Then the meeting ended. Everyone seems to be so busy. Either they’re rushing home, updating people about projects, or chit chatting. I don’t know where I should belong. And I did something that surprised even me. I passed thru the crowd, walked straight all the way out from the door. I just felt really fed-up.

 

Mana tahu, there was a shooting for committee members. As the result, I have to walk back to the place again. I wasn’t even feeling like smiling! When the PIC asked us to think of way to introduce ourselves, I thought of something really crappy and vain. Then some says it’s not good and scared it might menjejaskan PKV’s image.

 

Why must I ber’fellowship’ when I don’t feel like socializing at all? I know u can show me a dozens of bible verses about the reasoning, but isn’t that really fake?

 

Sometime I feel really out of place. I just have this weird feeling that I’m the only 3D; everyone else around me is just part of the background of the world I’m in. Because eventually, I’ll still be alone. (argh… I hate to see myself being so melancholic)

 

I don’t blame others. In fact, I think sometimes I’m pretty boring. So I can understand if people don’t like to talk to me. Sometime I get bored also.

 

And I do think that the shooting was kinda bad. I blame myself. How can I ever come out with this kind of idea? After all, I’m already a 5 years old Christian!

 

Is that a warning signal for my relationship with God? Am I too open to non-biblical idea? Am I too self centered?     

 

Or is what that were stated above part of my Easter post-event syndrome? If it is, what is the ROOT of the problem? Who do I have in PKV? Friends, or just working partners?

 

I guess the problem is more on me.

 

Finally, just want to apologize to those I’ve shown sour faces to yesterday. And thank you very much for readers of this entry who take these time ‘listening’ to my ‘roaring’. PKV-ians, hope u’re not offended. I love u all.

Coffee or Tea?

Teh si peng? Teh tarik? whatever lah...

Posted by ivykwek at 04:45 PM on March 20, 2007.

Layer One: On The Outside

Name : Kwek Ai Wei

Birth Date : 9 Nov 1987 *hint

Current status : single

Eye Colour : off-black

Hair Colour : Chesnut + light Mahagony...

Righty or Lefty : Left! the smarter ones...

 

Layer Two : On The Inside

Your Heritage : 100% child of God

Your Fears : Cockroaches...

Your Weakness : Impatient...?

Your Perfect Pizza : Beef Pepperoni Cheese!

 

Layer Three : Yesterday, Today , Tomorrow

Your Thoughts First Waking Up : this annoying alarm clock...

Your Bedtime : Thank God for the day...

Your Most Missed Memory : Those time when no troubles can troubles me

 

Layer Four : Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke : none

McDonald’s or Burger King : burger king!

Single or Group Dates : single pls...

Adidas or Nike : adidas

Tea or Nestea : Nestea (peach!)

Chocolate or Vanilla : both...hehe

Cappucino or Coffee : cappucino

 

Layer Five : Do You..

Smoke : if secondary smoker is included... yes a lot of time...

Curse : nope...

Take a shower : of course...

Have a crush : Not having one now...

Think you’ve been in love : yea...

Go to school : no... i'm in uni now...

Want to get married : yup yup

Believe in yourself : i believe in God

Think you’re a health freak : certainly not...

 

Layer Six : In The Past Month

Drank alcohol : nope

Gone to the mall : yea...

Been on stage : err... ya... b4 and after the play...

Eaten sushi : sadly no...

Dyed your hair : nope...

 

Layer Seven : Have You Ever...

Played A Stripping Game : r u kidding?!

Changed Who You Were To Fit In : yes...lots of time

 

Layer Eight : Age You’re Hoping To Be Married : 27

 

Layer Nine : In a Girl/Guy

Best Eye Colour : honey brown

Best Hair Colour : dark brown

Short Hair or Long Hair : medium long

 

Layer Ten : What Were You Doing

1 Min Ago : answering the above questions

1 Hour Ago : attending a boring lecture

4.5 Hours Ago : wandering ard in campus...

1 Month Ago : busy preparing Easter

1 Year Ago: mourning over my STPM results

 

Layer Eleven : Finish The Sentence

I Love : to be loved

I Feel : lost sometimes I

 Hate : not being myself

I Hide : my ugliness

I Miss : my first love for God

I Need : to trust Him with my life

 

Layer Twelve : Tag Five People

Five people

p/s: sorry for the mistake!

Coffee or Tea?

Oh gosh...my brain is full of Easter now...

Posted by ivykwek at 04:24 AM on March 14, 2007.

16 hours toward Easter. When love can down, it came down for u. Have u found it? Have the world found it? We're chosen by God not just to have the love. We're chosen to receive the love earlier, and to tell it to the world.

My fren was telling me that in every year's Good Friday, it never fails to rain. While we're having our Easter today instead of the real Easter day because of the clashes with our finals, it rained two days ago...! Some of u might think that it's simply a coincidence, but isn't really sweet to think that God actually remembers our Easter Celebration? We're so small and insignificant in the world, yet He sees us, appreciates us and acknowledge us!

Publicity. Performance. Backstage management. Backdrop and props. Technical. Program flow. Smooth procedure 4 application.

Turn-ups. Crowd response. Hospitality. Follow up.

Touched live. Impacted souls. Salvation of our friends. Harvest in campus.

Joy. Pain. Struggles. Sweet memories.

Prayer. Miracle. God-made way. Faith.

Grand finale. Post mortem. Celebration. Post-event symptoms.

Home. Revision. Assignments. Exam.

A Legacy to be left behind.

Coffee or Tea?

What shall separate us?

Posted by ivykwek at 04:26 PM on March 12, 2007.

Last friday was our last time of having a 'free of control' PKV(my uni CF)meeting(urmm...it's not very accurate to put it that way but pls bear with my limited english vocab), because recently our CF is facing some problems with the uni authority. They claimed that we've been following the wrong system in applying for activities, and that they found no contribution fr the weekly meetings in building the students' soft skills. Therefore, our activities should be project-based, which mean the poor secretary have to hand in proposal every time we want to meet.

that is terrible, isn't it? They too state that no rituals should be done in campus, and they considered Praise & Worship as religious rituals. So, we are not allowed to have P&W sessions anymore

What abt our freedom to exercise our faith?

I do really think that it is unfair. But perhaps b4 we start self pitying ourselves for what we're facing, we should Thank God for His Guidance all this while and repent, for we've taken things for granted.

Perhaps we should also ponder upon what 'fellowship' really means? What is the One irreplaceable factor, that hold our 'Christian Fellowship' together? If things really don't work out right, will we still stand in unity for God?

I think it's a time of tests. Will we pass the tests?

Hari ini

Kurasa bahagia

berkumpul bersama

saudara semua

Tuhan Yesus

t'lah satukan kita

tanpa memandang

di antara kita

Bergandingan tangan

dalam kasih

dalam satu hati

Kau saudaraku,

Kau sahabatku

Tiada yang dapat memisahkan kita...... 

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Posted by ivykwek at 06:41 PM on February 27, 2007.

Life's have been busy ever since i came back to uni for my scond half of the sem.

Go to committee planning retreat right after i reached kl, 2nd day go shopping on my own... never know it's actually kinda fun to shop alone...after all, i have a great harvest tht day Then evening go 4 CNY visitation...and get 'angpau's... weekend go to CPR 2nd session and of course, lectures the next morning... with lotsa assignments to do...

anyway...1 thing to thank God is tht we've got our approval fr the uni authority for our Easter project.. have been worrying abt tht cos we actually applied quite early... was telling my friend abt my worries tht it's not going to turn out well, and he reminds me of Acts 1:8, tht when we go out and tell ppl abt Jesus, we go with power of the Spirit! He's rite, i guess i've been little faith on this...

ok..commercial break..it's gonna be a musical on 14 march, so whoever that will be in KL on tht day... come ya! all r welcome.. do invite yr frens too! for further info, can always contact me..

Coffee or Tea?